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Misty Knight - i'm writing a paper on her for my Black Media class. influenced by Blaxploitation, so she's a stereotypical badass

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being quiet doesn't shield you from confrontation. I don't think i could be more peaceful, yet people always manage to piss me off. i've had many reasons for jumping from job to job, but most of all it's been about the people i have to work with. after awhile i get annoyed by the sight of their faces and the sound of their voices. i was hoping this wouldn't happen at my new job, but tonight it did. i'm gonna stick to my word and stay though.

i think my landlord is withholding heat until i pay my rent. so for now i keep my blowdryer nearby to stay warm. i went to pick up my checks on wednesday, and the office was closed (when it was supposed to be open), and they had some bullshit excuse about it being the holidays. Hmm I never knew Thanksgiving EVE was a fucking holiday. I still had to work a full shift that day, and so did most people.

him

i want you by Erykah

I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you
Oh, I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you

so, what we gon' do
what we gon' do
what we gon' do
What we gon' do

I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you
Oh, I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you

In the worst kinda way way way way way way way
I want you you you you, baby
so what we gon' do do do, baby
what we gon' do do do, baby


Love is on the way, all I got to say is
It wont let go
You can pray to early May, fast for 30 days
Still it wont let go, oh
Got a good book and got all in it, tried a little yoga for a minute
But it wont let go, oh
Tried to turn the sauna up to hotter, drunk a whole jar of holy water
But it wont let go, oh


I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you
Said I I I I I I
I said what we gon' do

In the worst kinda way way way way way way way
I want you you you you, baby
so what we gon' do, baby
so what we gon' do, baby


Love is on the way, all I got to say is
It wont let go
You can pray to early May, fast for 30 days
Still it wont let go, oh
Got good book and got all in it, tried a little yoga for a minute
But it wont let go, oh
Tried to turn the sauna up to hotter, drank a whole jar of holy water
But it wont let go, oh


I I I, baby
Want you you you, baby
so what we gon' (uh) do do do do do do do do do do do do do

I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you
I I I I I I
So what we gon' do

In the worse kinda way way way way way way way
I want you you you you, baby
so what we gon' do
now what we gon' do


(Now what we gone do)
I know you're a little nervous
(what we gone do)
I know you really want this
(what we gone do)
I can't believe the feeling
(what we gone do)
I feel it all over, feel it all over
(said what we gone do)
babe, yeah baby
(so what we gone do)
You don't believe in love, you missing a good thing
(so what we gone do)
Because I'm---say
Because I'm genuine, I'm genuine, yeah
(so what we gone do)
yeah baby

I don't want no trouble
Just a little loving (yeah)
I want to get to know ya (yeah)
I don't want your money (yeah)
You oughta get to know me (yeah)
My love'll make you wonder (yeah)
And lightning a thunder (yeah)
I get it from my mama (yeah)


Oh, I I I I I I I
I Want you you you you you you you
do do do do do do do
Now what we gon' do



I I I I I I I
I want you you you you you you you
Oh I I I I I I I
Want you you you you you you you

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Me: i got it, i got it bad

post-election post

nevermind the ignorant commentary in the background. on to the important stuff...

I support Barack Obama. I believe that he is passionate about rebuilding a country in desperate need.

there's nothing wrong with having hope, but some fanatics are wide-eyed, naive and wayyyy too optimistic. I'm not a pessimist, i'm a realist.

In one week, Philadelphia saw two huge celebrations. One for the Phillies and one for Obama. The city watched with excitement as the Phillies won the World Series. Fans cheered in the streets, we had a parade, and everyone was rockin Phillies gear. Then the hype subsided, and we all went back to life as usual. My fear is that Barack's victory is being treated the same way; as an event with a definitive ending and without any significant bearing on our everyday lives thereafter.


People are hanging up their Obama shirts and throwing away their Obama signs. The visibilty of support is fading. i'm not saying we have to walk around showcasing it, but i fear that our energy and dedication to his mission is fading as well. I hate to sound cliche but nothing is over. this really is the beginning. You cant just say okay, he's in office, now we're gonna sit on our asses and let him fix everything by himself. That's absurd. One of the points he drives home is community service. if you truly want to see real change, you need to think about what YOU can do to make that a reality.
It is a common and dangerous idea that Obama will step into office and wave a magic wand and all will be well. The quality of life for many American citizens has been on a steady decline for years, and it will take years to turn that around.



to my brothers and sisters:
this system was founded in racism, and after hundreds of years and minimal progress, it continues to function under racism. everyone who was racist before November 4, 2008 is still a racist today. they did not change overnight. hopefully Obama will address racial hierarchy and inequality in an unprecendented way. but the pressing issues right now are the economy and the wars on terror. a half-Black man in the office is a small step towards a better future. however, he has an entire country to serve, and if you think he is our Black savior, you're in for a disappointment. don't get me wrong. i'm happy to see a person of color in office, and it is a sign of a new time in our country, and the world. but... the system of racial hierarchy remains firmly in place... and, plenty of those people who voted for Obama, did so because they agree with his policies, or because they just disliked McCain more. but that doesn't mean they see us as their equals. many of them still would not want us living next door to them, clutch their bags when we are near, tell Black jokes, and I could go on and on. I read a disturbing article in the City Paper about racist whites who voted for Obama and still called him a nigger. We cant walk around with an overestimated sense of progress.

Obama victory celebration

this isn't anything special. just a bunch of honking and screaming. it's not the best, but hey, i never said i was a filmmaker.

Philadelphia Phillies World Series Champions

My parade coverage for class:


videos of the post-game rally as soon as my computer stops acting up