Seasons Greetings

corrections: it'll be a Christmas Eve party, not New Years Eve, lol. And Ashura already passed, so I should've said "i hope you had a Happy Ashura".

Invisible Man

I've attempted to read this classic by Ralph Ellison (published 1952) several times over the years, and for some reason couldn't get through it. i'm currently reading it, and this time i've gotten further than i ever have. i think i might actually finish it this time.

better than the real thing

You can't make this stuff up

so a lot of people call MetroPCS ghetto (Ghettro PCS). i mean, most of the phones they offer are very cheap quality, and kind of slow sometimes, but as far as service, i've never had any dropped calls or weak signals. but here's where the problem comes in, recycled numbers. i get "wrong number" calls/texts alllll the the time. i understand maybe when i first get the phone with a new number, i may get contacted by people looking for the person who had that number right before me. but i've had this number for 4 months now and i still get random calls and most of them are ghetto:

ring ring...
Me: Hello
Other end: yea uh Shaniqua dere?

every time someone mistakenly calls, they're looking for someone different, and i'm like damn, how many ppl had this number?sometimes it'll ring and i pick up and it's a recording in Spanish. anyways, today i got text msgs from some guy looking for a girl named tanisha. at first i thought it was hilarious, because it was so poorly written, but as they kept flooding in i started to feel sympathetic towards this guy as he was trying to apologize to her. here's everything he wrote [not censored, except for his name]:

You dont give me chance to let me tell u how things was goin on wit my life but ima try say it in my text tanisha sorry that i played with your heart N im sorry for not calln you but went down to va a cuple weeks ago just wanted to get away from everyone to get my mind rite n away from my family they Wont me to do wit they want just wanted to c if they cant do wit out me i realy dont have no1 in my corner to talk to they think i know everything n i Can do everything i try but i cant its hard but i still try dont wantna let anyone down a man is soppose to do what he has to do 4 his family thats wht My grandmother told me but none of those let downs dont have anything on yours i was thinkn over n over out of all people how can i do that to You i kno things are not gona be rite back the same but i will as wait as long as it takes 4 the day it do wht im tryna say is that i cant lose your Heart to anyone while im still liven i will realy be goin thou Hard times just sum things i had to tell u that i couldnt hold in anymore i love you tanisha not tryna hold u up hope u enjoy your birthday ps love Alwayz r***** f****** sorry boo

this is like the sweetest ghetto love story i've ever heard. so me being as cooky as i am, i call the guy just to let him know that he's sending the messages to the wrong number. he's putting forth this deep apology that tanisha needs to hear! lol then 10 minutes later, homeboy calls back and is like "yo, so what should i do?" and i'm like "what do you mean?" and he's like "was that sweet what i said?" and i was like "yea i dont even know you and i was like 'awww'. she needs to hear this".
RF: "but she always tryna play me tho".
Me: "you have to try. you need to find her and tell her how you feel. everything you sent me, you have to tell her".
RF: "i dont know. i'm startin to feel like it wasnt meant".
Me: "if she plays you again, maybe it's time to move on, but you have to at least try".

what am i doing when i get home from work? i'm on the phone giving relationship advice to some random Philly bol. My life is so random and entertaining and i love every second of it.

N'Dambi @ World Cafe Live

i've been sleeping on this place and i really need to start going more often. i went there tonight to see N'Dambi. this girl knows how to put on a show!


it's late and i'm out of it. excuse the pointless rambling and redundancy. this is cut down. i actually rambled on for like 7 minutes. about what? i dunno
hit the box with the arrows for full screen! do it!

Off and Running

love this film
i want the score to this so bad.

coincidentally, i'm currently writing a poem called "running". it's not inspired by the film, but i plan to start running again soon, and i'm reflecting on the mental aspect.

guitar

yup, just posted a couple funny videos, bringin the positivity back. my semester is over in a week and winter break will be filled with food, fun, friends, family, aaaaand MUSIC! i'm learning how to play the guitar and i'm bursting at the seams!, i'm so excited. i've had a guitar for 4 years, and it's done nothing but collect dust. i love music, and i've always wanted to play an instrument. so here goes. i originally posted a clip of me strumming and singing but it was so awful i took it down. you'll just have to wait til i master this thing to hear a song.